Where You Go, I Will Go.

College. Three full weeks in and I've already been through way more than I expected to get myself into. Luckily, there have been more ups than downs. I have figured out who to hang out with, and who not to hang out with. I know the sketchy people and the trustworthy people. But in the midst of everything going on around me, I am so at peace with it all. God has totally showed up in my life in a way that I never expected Him to. (That is SO God though..)
I recently joined a Life Group for Chi Alpha, and it has literally been one of the best decisions of my life! The two times that we've gotten together, you can just feel the love of God there. That's how wonderful these girls are. He just shines straight through every single one of them! Even the ones who seem broken or hurt, you can tell God is already working in them.
Last night we started a book called Lady In Waiting. Becoming God's best while waiting for Mr. Right. We read the first chapter last night, and it is already wrecking us to pieces, let me just tell you.. One of the quotes said "A woman is not born a woman. Nor does she become a woman when she marries a man, bears a child and does dirty linen, not even when she joins a women's liberation movement. A woman becomes a woman when she becomes what God wants her to be." My first reaction to this was, "Uh DUH!" But then I thought to myself.. "Ivy, don't even act like you don't endlessly dream about these things!" As the book went on there was another quote. This was the start of the wrecking of our hearts.. It said this: "Too many Christian women think that their longings of their heart relate only to love, marriage, and motherhood. Look a little closer and see if that longing isn't ultimately for Jesus."
Okay wow... WOW! This one really caught me off guard. Just like most girls, I put a lot of my time and energy into... yep, you guessed it... Boooyyyss. I don't know why that is, but for me, boys are my total weakness (which is a completely different story that I won't get into right now). I admit.. I have relived my own wedding millions of times in my head. Where it would be, who would be there, who my husband would be, etc. Just recently I have realized that I have wasted so much time thinking about something that I have absolutely no control over!
In this life group we are learning to just let God take control of our hearts, minds, and relationships. He is our one and only true romancer, and he wants our whole hearts and lives every single day. He wants us to want to be with Him, because He knows things far beyond what we could even imagine.
Thank goodness I have a group of girls who are there for me, going through the exact same things I am going through. I could not ask for a better group!

"..And so we are not giving up! How could we? Though it often looks like things are falling apart in us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace!!"

-2 Cor. 4:16